Bucket List-Not For Me

I'm not a big fan of a "bucket list." I mean, think about it. It's a list of things that people want to do before they die. By writing this list, they are focusing on what they don't have or what they haven't accomplished in their life. And in reality, how many people are truly able to accomplish everything on their bucket list by the time they die? That may cause some people to feel like they've failed at living a successful life. I don't think anyone should feel like that.

I'm more of the "enjoy life in the moment" kind of person. People often become so focused on the future or past that they ignore what's right in front of them in the present. There are so many opportunities to enjoy life just where people are but they look right over it. I understand there are times when it is needed to look in the past or plan for the future. But, when it comes to experiencing life, why? The moment you have right now is the one you can do something with. Why not enjoy it?

So. I don't have a bucket list. It's more like a "Things That Would Be Cool To Experience If I Should Happen To Get An Opportunity To Experience Them But My Life Will Be Just Fine If I Don't Experience Them List." If I ever made a list, that's more likely what it would be, maybe with a shorter title! But, I most likely won't be making a list. I've got to many things to enjoy right now, like cookie cake sitting beside me!  :)

Do You Know What You Say?

I mean, yes. You know the words that you consciously say when you speak. But, do you really know how much you say? I unknowingly started the beginnings of a social experiment the other day when I casually asked a friend what do I say a lot. I don't know what I was expecting, but I did not expect the answer I got. That got me thinking. If that's what she hears from me, what do other people hear from me? So I decided to ask a few people in my life.

Here are the answers I got:

• "I don't count on Chris!" (quoting a commercial)
• You suck. (in Chinese voice)
• Dun dun duh.
• So.
• Get over it.
• Yes!!!!
• No.
• I've got skills.
• Phuleez
• I don't think so.
• Yummy!
• Chocolate

I don't know if this is scary or funny. I'm going to go with the optomistic, "glass is half full" approach and say funny! And, based on that list, what does that say about me? It makes me wonder how I really portray myself to people. I found this to be an interesting exercise that I stumbled upon. I was entertained by it.  :)

So, ask people what you say a lot. You might be surprised! I know I was.

The World of Writing

Writing is a tricky thing. Especially for me. Words have an unspoken power (haha no pun intended). I have the greatest intention to write. But, when I sit down to do it, I end up sitting and staring at a blank screen. Where did the motivation go? I often wonder if it is the publicity of the internet that sends my motivation to outer space to never be found again? Writing becomes a reflection of me and the awareness that others are going to read changes the rules of the game! The words I write become a window allowing people to look in and no longer are a closed-door keeping people out. As a person who naturally keeps things inside and doesn't share much personal information with people, even those close to me, writing becomes a daunting task that goes against my nature.

This past year has been full of changes, ups and downs and all arounds! I've become more aware of how internal I am. So. I've decided to write. How is this time different from the other failed attempts at writing and blogging? This time I'm writing for myself. It's not about the numbers or joining the trend of blogging or because other people are doing it. I'm writing for an audience of one. Me.

Welcome to the story of me.